mother.

no this is not a post about how wonderful my mother is.
more like how shes such a gay mofo of a mother :)

let me tell you why...
well i asked her if i could go to the footy on sunday, seeing as it is the school holidays and it's in the arvo. And she said no, what to know her reasons;
1. If i go to footy now i will always want to keep on going
My Response;
no fucking shit i want to keep going, BECAUSE I WANT TOO SUPPORT MY TEAM EVERY 2WEEKS (cause they have a home game every 2weeks) and thats the fucking point of going to footy, to keep going and support your team and get some good entertainment!!

2. Andy never want to footy when he was in yr 11
My Response;
FFS, if hes not going to footy now and he didnt go in yr 11, maybe that should indicate to you that HE DOESN'T FOLLOW FOOTY!

3. If you go to footy now you wont concentrate on yr 11
My Response;
WTF, its the SCHOOL HOLIDAYS and how will me going to footy affect yr 11!

4. You don't take yr 11 seriously
My Response;
Nothing to do with the TOPIC. But seriously, she doesn't think i take yr 11 seriously!! I'M NOT STUPID, OF COURSE I TAKE YR 11 SERIOUSLY. IT DOESN'T HELP THAT YOU KEEP REMINDING ME THAT I'M STUPID AND NEVER DO MY HW. WHEN YOUR NEVER HOME TO SEE THAT I DO MY HOMEWORK.

keeping in mind people, that i did not say fucking at her haha or swear i just yelled a lot : )


She pisses the shit out of me right now. And she's always like 16 year olds are always like this lala, maybe i wouldn't be like this if you TRUSTED me or ACKNOWLEDGED that i am GROWING UP and STOP MAKING STUPID DECISIONS WITH NO SIGNIFICANT EXCUSES. If she let me go to the footy game, i wouldn't have acted like a bitch to her.
And it is the school holidays and i haven't been out (until she said i couldn't go, then i told viv to go out cause i couldn't stand another minute in this hell hole thats my home, but more on that later) and its also in the arvo. Last time i went to the nab cup derby and it was at night and i didn't home till like 11.30 pm, and i had school the next day. But you know what i actually said to myself, rach and kavi that i won't go to any more night matches because mum would be mad that i come home so late, also cause its dangerous taking the train at night. Of course i didn't tell that to my mum, but she doesn't trust me or know me enough to think that i would make GOOD decisions that affect HER and SCHOOL. Instead she doesn't let me to go a AFTERNOON football game during the SCHOOL HOLIDAYS.

And she wonders why i get pissed off at her well maybe she should THINK OUTSIDE OF THE FUCKING BOX AND TRUST ME TO MAKE GOOD DECISIONS.

Anyway, rant over.
On a much lighter note, Viv and i went to caro yesterday, twas very last minute seeing as i needed/wanted to get out of the hell hole. That was the first time i've been to caro since i quit work? My there were many new stores!
My purchases included;
1. Bandaids haha! Because my new shoes gave me horrible blisters, and Viv wouldn't let me buy The Wiggles ones : ( so i had to buy normal brown ones POO.
2. A pink top from cotton on, it was only $5!
3. A greyish singlet top from cotton on, which was also $5!
4. Large chips from maccas

Vivs Purchases;
1. Natio stuff for her mums present, we got a good bargain man, cause we got this free gift thingy worth $40+ when you spend over $35 (Y) we're such good shoppers
2. A dress from cotton on for $15 ;) haha our little secret
4. Chocolate sundae from maccas.

All in all it was a good shopping trip, cept for the pain in our feet from our dodgy shoes. Hopefully i can go out more so i can get out of this hell hole : ) btw this was hell yesterday! haha.

Today i went printer hunting and put one on layby at retravision in maddo (Y)

I'm off now.
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mute.

lately i've been really sad? well not sad, just not very social.
oh my gosh i sound like a bloody sad case.
Is it that time of month again? i don't know :P
But seriously, for example;
1. I'm getting really ticked off at my friends when they do stupid things. They use to do it but i never cared but now i do...
2. I barely talk in some classes, isit cause im paying attention? But in Chem i barely talk.

seriously man wtf is wrong with me : (
i don't even feel like going out on the holidays.

anyways i will stop being a fucking sad case : )
i'm going to a wedding tomorrow, got nothing to wear! ANDD
TOMORROW EAGLES V SWANS AND AND AND!!
SCOTT, MATT R AND MATT S ARE PLAYING!!! MY TRIANGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOYAHHH. but i might not get to watch it seeing as i might go to the wedding dinner : ( BUT MY TRIANGLE!! AWW THEY MAKE ME SO PROUD.
it's going to be a good game, eagles and swans games are always close, but this time our team is very young!!! so who knows what will happen!
even if im going to the wedding dinner i'll listen to the game!! because i'll bring a walkman haha oldd school : P only cause my stupid mp3 doesnt have AM! and i'll also get rach to tape the game for me so i can watch it later hahaha!!

i'm off for now :)
x

argh.

right now i have worse streak of bad luck.
well not worse but i've been just ARGH!!!
examples well;
just then dad recharged his credit and with optus you can win prizes, so he told me to go on the net and claim his prize. so i did everything and then when it said claim 30 free texts i was like okay, AND I FUCKING CLOSED IT! so i didnt claim it!!! meaning we probably didnt get the free texts UGH. Yes, thats probably nothing much but still!!!

anddd i got today i just had the shittiest day at school.
i got my results back from two tests(econs and physics)
and i failed, both of them.
econs - 9/20
physics - 12/35
Usually i'll be like "HAHA sucks to be you Lillian, boo fucking hoo. try harder"
but what the hell is that going to achieve??!?! im just verbally abusing myself, that ain't going to get my marks higher!!! oh and in my chem test i got 52% so it was JUST pass.

Yes, i know i'm to blame because i don't study. BUT I CANT STUDY!! its like theres this little person inside my brain going "Lillian you suck, theres no point in studying cause your a stupid fucker, just slackk :)" SO I SLACK! For example during the weekend i could have studied and did homework, but you know what i did instead; WATCHED FOOTY. yes i know footy wasnt on the WHOLE weekend but still all i did was watch tv and eat and sleep.

But seriously, i can't study for shit. Even for exams and stuff i dont study - i cram, which works but i can't help but wonder if i actually STUDIED regularly would i get higher marks?! I have tied to study. Sometimes i actually succeed but most times i don't. Everytime i study i go to my room and just sit there and try to study, but i get distracted to easily! And then i get all paranoid cause its all quiet and i hate it so i turn on music, THEN I START SINGING TO THE MUSIC. Thus making me distracted once again!!
HOW THE FUCK AM I MEANT TO STUDY IF I CAN'T STUDY IN QUIET OR LOUDNESS!?!

help me?

oh yes on a lighter note;
JEN IS COMING BACK TO THORNLIE TOMORROW.
MORE ABT IT LATER, I MUST GO NOW
BYE.
X

surprise.

Mission Accomplished :)
good send off for jen! she didn't suspect a thing! But it wasn't all smooth sailing...
First jen called to say that she MISSED HER BUS! ughh.
So we were waiting at box 3 like losers...haha nahh we were drinking(non alcoholic drinks of course!)
Then we saw her walking to hoyts and we were all chatting in box 3, and rach was like UGH! jen! DUCK! so we did haha, then kavii and i went up stairs to go get her. And then kavi was like "umm i want to go get smoothie from box 3." then we walked there and jen was like "hey look..."
and then we all said "surprise" :) and she was surprised :D
i cannot be bothered writing anything; so i will leave you with pictures.

jen and kane

mel, rach and jen

jen and present and kane

jen pulling her present out

group photo :) thanks to box 3 waitress lady!

ugh, calculating the bill so annoying cause they didnt have separate billing!

no more food!

kavii trying to kill me

dan, kavi, me and jen

kavi, me and jen

rach, dan, kane, jen and kavi
mel and me

rach, dan, kane, jen and kavi
me

me
kane,dan, mel,jen and kavi

hahaha look at rachel :P shes going to attack kane!


yes so that's all :)
i miss jen :(
i wrote a letter for her and told her to read it when she got home, and she read it on the train and cried. see thats what you get for not listening to me! crying in a public place tsk. haha.

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jen leaving.

well my very good friend jen is leaving to rockingham high.

I'm sure it'll be more convenient for her since she lives in rockingham and has to travel on trains and buses to get to thornlie which takes ages. She always falls asleep in class, so as much as i don't want her to leave, it'll be for the best :)

So tomorrow we will be going to Box 3 for a surprise goodbye lunch. She thinks that shes only going to caro to watch a movie with me and kavi :P So i will lure her to Box 3 by saying "I want to get a smoothie from Box 3 they are so good : )" haha! Hopefully its not suss : ) I really hope she likes it, and is surprised.

We(Rachel and I) also made her a present, full of handmade goodness. haha! Other people also chipped in, i didn't want it too be very superficial and store brought so we only got $5 from them. So with $5 from me, rach, mel, ash, kavi and $10 from dan (such a generous boy!) we had $35! Then we brought a canvas, printed off pictures and brought arty crafty stuff and made a collage. haha no idea what its called but its very nice :) full of pictures and memories :)isn't it lovely? took as a while to do it. I like it :) Now i have to lug it onto the bus tomorrow haha! hopefully i don't look too weird with it!!

While we were making the present footy was on, eagles lost got a good spanking. Let's never speak of it again! haha. Hopefully nxt week at the derby they will be able to win :)

It's earth hour right now, and yes i know i'm very bad for having my computer on, but i cant help it! i still need to do homework : S But there is no light so i cannot see! Have no fear the lights are turned off, EXCEPT THAT DAD WENT OUTSIDE AND TURNED THE LIGHT ON TSK. I bag people about putting carbon emissions into the air and waste water so much that rach and ash decided to throw me into a cave :) haha! But its a serious problem people! For those who don't think global warming is real, go die!

so thats all for now.
hopefully tomorrow will be a success!
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football.

oh yes,
yesterday i forgot to blog about,
FOOTBALL SEASON STARTED!
i must say that made me the happiest girl on the planet! oh how i missed football! now i can get non stop glorious games till september!! can't get any better than that :)

the first two games;
carlton v richmond
outcome - richmond! it was a close game. judds debut in carlton colours...you know something, it sucks to be carlton. no 1 draft pick last year, BEST player in the country(whom use to play for us mighty eagles) and yet they still lose to the wooden spooners of last year. well judd, SUCKS TO BE YOUU. screw us over and now karma has come to get you :)

moving on...
next game was geelong v port
outcome - geelong of course! it was a rematch of last years grand final where geelong flogged port by A LOT! was an okay game, got boring so i turned it off, but i already knew geelong had won :) as they are my second favorite team, i was barraking for them. i think they'll have a good year this year, like last year. just hope they dont have TOO good year since eagles will be winning haha im so biased.

i just have one more thing to say before i go off, judd is a great player dont get me wrong. but when he was in the draft he had dodgy shoulders (still does probably) so all the other clubs didnt pick him, so we did, being the nice club that we are :) we developed him, we gave him our support, we built most of our game plan around juddy, he had the support of the best ruckman and two of the best midfielders (kerr and cousins). we made him a star. with us he became all australian (many times, can't remember how many), brownlow medalist (highest honour in footy), norm smith medalist, captain and premiership captain & player. and im sure much much more. then in the horrid year of 2007, where we lost benny :( and had such a big hoo haa about all of the eagles being druggies. our captain, yes CAPTAIN, chris judd, decided to leave us to supposedly "go back home because he misses his mummy" now everyone knows thats shithouse. he was in it for the MOOLAH. at carlTANK he gets a trillion dollars a season*slight exaggeration haha. other people say that he is setting himself up for his career after football ( something to do with business) yep i believe that too. i know that you should do whats best for you, a man for himself blah blah blah. but what i can understand he wants money everyone does, whoever said money cant make you happy has mental problems. i can understand that he is closer to his family. but the thing i CANNOT understand AT ALL is the fact that he knew he wanted to leave us when his contract was finished, BEFORE he took the captaincy. thats what ticks me off the most. captains are meant to be loyal, if he knew he could not be loyal he should have never taken the captaincy. some may say that it was thrust upon him because of bennys antics. well let me tell you something, a simple no would have been effective.

now i shall stop dwelling in the past, because we have the BEST captain now. mr darren glass :) a fantastic team, and we will kick ass with or without judd and cousins. so for all you non believers i cannot wait to say SUCKS TO BE YOUU when we win a premiership :)

anyways its just good to finally have football back on :) eagles are playing tomorrow(saturday) can't wait!! oh yes btw happy easter :) still no easter eggs.
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homework.

so much bloody homework.
i was looking forward to the easter break for soo long,
then i get bombarded with homework/assignments/epws :(
damn you teachers, HAVENT I WORKED HARD ENOUGH ALREADY!!
let me run through my mt everest of homework.
1. english assignment - write a letter (i'm half way through it)
2. intro calc epw + exercises (started some of them already) but the epw is really hard :(
3. physics questions + assignment + study for MAJOR test
4. econs - study for test + questions
5. finish off chem bits and pieces

ARGH.
and pretty much all of that stuff is due when i come back.
why! why must you teachers be so cruel to me, im just a poor stupid child.
bloody fucking hell.

on a might nicer note i finally got my new uniform.

i must say it is rather nice. i especially love the jumpers, so big and warm, supposedly there called bomber jackets? very cool :)this is the senior school shirt. white stripe, middle school is a sky blue stripe.
see the my beautiful eagles wall? haha, my eagles door is better :)


the jacket :)

the new uniform makes us look more professional haha. costs a bomb too. jacket was $50 and polo was $28!


off the topic of school now...
on monday im going to a mates house :) i think were just doing nothing haha, i heard were having a BBQ? and other stuff, going to be good to relaxx. but i'll bring my hw there for help haha. we are going to sleep over too then on tuesday we'll go to caro and watch a movie. but the thing is mum is a bitch and wont let me sleepover peoples houses, want to know why?

BECAUSE IM A GIRL

yes i know what the fuckkk? i bet its because she thinks i'll get raped? yeah im sure...seriously WELCOME TO THE 21ST CENTURY!! she wont let me do anything! not even go to the city. seriously WTF. and then she was like WHEN YOU'RE YOUR BROTHERS AGE YOU CANT GO OUT ALL NIGHT LIKE HIM!! BLAH BLAH BLAH and im like pft sif im going to listen to you, you put more restrictions on me when im older i will rebel more :) right now im too stressed out with hw to rebel haha. mothers think they know everything and then when we rebel against them there all like "ai yorrr, what have i done to deserve such a daughter, i've only ever been good to you, feed you, educate you and now all you do is disobey me and you think you know everything!!"
well maybe if you had let me out more i wouldnt have disobeyed you :) yes think outside the square, you are not always right! dumbasses. when i become a mother i will be the best mother everrr, or so i hope haha, not like my mother pft.

oh yes, happy easter :) for tomorrow! yet again mother has not brought me easter bunnies/eggs. maybe if she brought me easter bunnies and eggs i would not disobey her : P

im off now.
must try and do A LOT of homework tomorrow so i can RELAX on my easter break, but it seems the teachers are out on a mission to not let me relax at all!
goodnight.
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2 posts.

2 posts one day.
my oh my im on a roll.

i just had something incredible happen in my life and i thought i should share it with you. no i did not find out i was pregant : P I DROVE A CAR FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. yes it was quite a big car also, a ford. let me tell you one thing. i quite suck haha. but it wasnt too bad. just had to get the hang of turning and stuff! i drove pretty slow, BUT IT WAS MY FIRST TIME!! highest i hit was 42kms haha.
after about 15 mins of driving this other L plater came...and it was onn nahh jks. BUT HE WAS DRIVING LIKE WAYY FASTER THAN ME :( and dads like see your so slowwww. i bet that guy has driven before! unlike me who was driving for the first time!
but im going again tomorrow.
and hopefully to vivs place. i dont think i'll be driving to her house since im still so slow. but yeahh i'll drive around the same secluded place i did today :)

driving is addictive!
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results.

well i got my intro test back.
might i say, QUITE CRAPPY.
i got 39/50 (78%) how bloody stupid. mel got 47 obviously! haha and rachel got 45! and ughh WHY AM I SO STUPID i actually thought that test was pretty easy and i thought i'd get a good mark. i think i need a brain transplant, someone go get me a smart persons brain and perform a brain transplant :) i'd be ever so greatful!

but yeah im disappointed. but then again i shouldnt be since im so stupid i always expect myself to get the worse mark! oh well, boo fucking hoo Lillian, try harder.

havent got physics marks back yet.
for yesterdays chem test i got 27/40( i think!)
still crappy.

anyways thats all for now. just wanted to express my disappointment.
note to self: STUDY HARDER YA DUMB FUCK.




OHH BTW
EAGLES WON BY A GOAL YESTERDAY IN THE CHALLENGER MATCH AGAINST ESSENSCUM. WOOOOO IM HITTING MY HEAD ON THE TABLE CAUSE IT WAS A GOOD MATCH AND NOT MANY PEOPLE WENT AND I COULD HAVE GOTTEN IN FOR FREE!!!!!!!! FREE NOW EVERYTHING THATS FREE IS GOOD HAHA. BUT UGHH I DIDNT. PLUS IT WAS A NIGHT GAME AND MUM SAID IM NOT ALLOWED TO GO TO NIGHT GAMES ANY MORE...BUT THIS TIME IT WAS ON FRIDAY NIGHT...OH WELL!!!!!!!!
FOOTY SEASON STARTS IN 14 DAYS!
IM PUMPED.

tests.

ahoy hoy.
sorry for the long delay. ive been so busy with school :(
today i had two tests;
intro calc +
chemistry
all last night i studied for intro and i didnt study for chem haha. i've kinda got chem down pact...but today i forgot something i should have remembered! oh well, hopefully intro calc will be okay cause i put a lot of effort into that!!! my i need better time management skills, i really really suck beyond bad at managing my time :(

anyhoo on a differnt note
my presents

eagles cup dad got me.



earings phei got me





necklace the new CI girls brought me



perfume brother got me












the presents that rach, mel, dan, ash and elle got me :)
i love the popstick house!
AND THE POPSTICK PEOLPLE!


got a bit more but i shall upload them later :)
must do homework now!
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ahoy hoy.

birthday party today.
was fun.
love the presents.
shall update with presents of pics later on, no pics taken of us as we are lazy little assholes haha. i love my presents :) and i luv rachie she can makes my day.

update later :)

happy birthday.

well today i can legally in WA reproduce.
haha, yes it is my 16th birthday.

so far
birthday presents
bro - perfume, echo by davidoff
mum- volcom handbag
dad - eagles mug + LEARNERS PERMIT!

i love dads present the most!! because
1. ITS EAGLES, therefore he actually knows what i like!
2. LEARNERS PERMIT!!!
need i say more?
for those who dont know, learners permit = I CAN DRIVE!!! *with a liscenced driver.
whoopdeedoodadayy for me :) but im kinda scared haha. since im so damn short (155cm) i prob cant see over the dash and i'll prob run over many little children haha.

anyways after i got my learners permit we went to garbo to pick up mums glasses. now people please remind me to nxt time NEVER GO TO GARDEN CITY WITH MUM ON MY BIRTHDAY. oh my gosh, she brought my present (black volcom hand bag) then shes like "oh arent you happy now" AND THEN SHE GOES AROUND LOOKING AT HER CRAP. THIS ISNT YOUR FUCKING BIRTHDAY ITS MINEE BITCH. argh.
i shall never spend my birthday with family ever again.
birthdays with dysfunctional families = bad, and never again!!
but i think tomorrow were going out to eat at some jap restaurant.

oh i have a lame story to tell you haha.
last night it was like 12.30, and i was in my room getting ready for bed. AND THERE WAS THIS HUGE FUCKING COCKROACH ON MY WALL! and i sat on my bed staring at it for a minute or so. now i do kill bugs, im not that pansy. BUT I REFUSE TO KILL COCKROACHES!!!! REFUSE!! there shells are so hard and ughh its desgusting AND THERE SO BIG ewww. i dont even mind killing big spiders but i will NOT kill cockroaches. and then my brother was getting ready to shower and im like heyy gohhh....since its my birthday and all.....WILL YOU KILL A COCKROACH FOR ME? haha and he did :) THANKYOU!! and he was like "you owe mee"
pfft sif i owe you, its my birthdayy haha.
i concluded from that lame story that all cockroaches should be extinct from planet earth :)

anyhoo thats all for now...
x

p.s
viv made the nicest post abt me on her blog.
it made me shed a tear haha, and that is like sooo unlikey! haha.
but it was so sweet :)
THANK YOU VIV!

hi :)

ahoy hoy.
ive finally uploaded the pics :)

I AM OFFICALLY NO LONGER WORKING AT KMART!!
im going to miss the people so much :( esp dean and theresa!
dean, that little mole GOT A JOB AS THE PERSON IN THE EAGLES MASCOT COSTUME!!! but hes not the person inside it on game days. he just does it for clinics and stuff AND FOR CLINICS SOME PLAYERS GO AND HE GETS TO TALK TO THEM AND ARGHH boo dean!! haha nahh deans a good bloke, gonna miss him :( hopefully we can catch up one day again :) i have his number and his msn so we shall stay in touch!!

okay so when i got to work.
i felt like crap and beyond, cause of my monthlies. never had so much pain in my ovaries or pelvic area before! haha. i felt like REMOVING MY OVARIES THATS HOW BAD IT WAS!!
when i first came in i handed my letter of resignation to chris (my manager) and he was like WHY? and im like cause i dont feel like working and hes like fair enough :P
then i went to toys to talk to jess and just sat there cause i felt like crap. so i talked to her for ages haha then decided to finally go to stationary. and theres a new kid there called kyle, hes not that new he use to fill in toys. but now hes in stationary. yeahh after i knew someone was in stationary i went back to toys haha cause he did everything. so pretty much for half of my shift i just sat in toys talking to jess haha.

it was a good shift :)
going to miss
-DEAN!
-jess (even though i see her at school)
-theresa
-steph
-aiden
-derek(i'll see him at school)
and thats about it. haha, there may be more but i cant remember then atm!!

about 4months working there and what have i gotten from it;
-a bunch of pay slips haha
- found out the inside ways of how kmart works
-my name badge
-so many memories
-MET SO MANY GREAT PEOPLE!
haha i didnt even get the uniform : (

missing it already :(
but time to grow up and get a new job.
where to work kiddos?

NO MORE WORK! FINISH LAST SHIFT OF WORK.
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oh the joy.

ow.
i got my period this morning.
and now the pain has hit me like a freight train!!!
it really hurts, like beyond bad.
how am i meant to work today!!

on the good side,
only 3hrs of work :)
plus quitting today! yay.

birthday.

1 week till my birthday.
sweet 16th :)
i keep forgetting haha. till someone reminds me!
bro got me an early present :)
it was perfume,
echo by davidoff?
smells good :) i quite like it, but i prefer j'dore by dior.
but its the thought that counts!
mum and i went searching for my birthday present she shall get me, a black handbag. but i couldnt find any nice ones!! are nice black handbags extinct in perth!!! WHERE ARE YOU NICE HANDBAGS!! WHERE! haha. i also want black rusty boardshorts! now you nice nice people, go get them for me for my birthday! haha.

today i went shopping with mother, after school of course :) + it was late night. we went to myer and brought bed sheet stuff : ) mum got me this cool set :) and she got herself one also, it was a hell good buy. cause mine use to cost $80 and then it was reduced to $40 and THEN it was another 50% off!! so it was $20. mum was $90 then reduced to $60 then another 50% off and it was $30 : ) so we saved $120 wowee. thats the asian way of life man ahah. i have pictures of my bed sheets :) i shall upload them later, boy am i lazy! haha. the bed sheets are more mature than my winnie the pooh ones! but i still love my winnie the pooh ones :) cause im always going to be a child at heart!


haha this top is wayy cool, if you dont know what it says it says "RELAX DONT DO IT" the lyrics from 'relax by frankie in hollywood'


new bed sheets!

anyhoo, NXT thursday(my birthday) the teachers of WA are having a strike! WOOHOO!! that means i dont have to spend my birthday at school!!!!! YAY!! its a half day strike, but my fucking ass i am going back to school after lunch! so that is a highlight of my birthday haha!

anyways kiddilings i must go do my hw now.
goodnight.
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