argh.

right now i have worse streak of bad luck.
well not worse but i've been just ARGH!!!
examples well;
just then dad recharged his credit and with optus you can win prizes, so he told me to go on the net and claim his prize. so i did everything and then when it said claim 30 free texts i was like okay, AND I FUCKING CLOSED IT! so i didnt claim it!!! meaning we probably didnt get the free texts UGH. Yes, thats probably nothing much but still!!!

anddd i got today i just had the shittiest day at school.
i got my results back from two tests(econs and physics)
and i failed, both of them.
econs - 9/20
physics - 12/35
Usually i'll be like "HAHA sucks to be you Lillian, boo fucking hoo. try harder"
but what the hell is that going to achieve??!?! im just verbally abusing myself, that ain't going to get my marks higher!!! oh and in my chem test i got 52% so it was JUST pass.

Yes, i know i'm to blame because i don't study. BUT I CANT STUDY!! its like theres this little person inside my brain going "Lillian you suck, theres no point in studying cause your a stupid fucker, just slackk :)" SO I SLACK! For example during the weekend i could have studied and did homework, but you know what i did instead; WATCHED FOOTY. yes i know footy wasnt on the WHOLE weekend but still all i did was watch tv and eat and sleep.

But seriously, i can't study for shit. Even for exams and stuff i dont study - i cram, which works but i can't help but wonder if i actually STUDIED regularly would i get higher marks?! I have tied to study. Sometimes i actually succeed but most times i don't. Everytime i study i go to my room and just sit there and try to study, but i get distracted to easily! And then i get all paranoid cause its all quiet and i hate it so i turn on music, THEN I START SINGING TO THE MUSIC. Thus making me distracted once again!!
HOW THE FUCK AM I MEANT TO STUDY IF I CAN'T STUDY IN QUIET OR LOUDNESS!?!

help me?

oh yes on a lighter note;
JEN IS COMING BACK TO THORNLIE TOMORROW.
MORE ABT IT LATER, I MUST GO NOW
BYE.
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